Psych

Before we begin, let us take a step back to ask ourselves what should be the most undeniable question we will be pondering here. Do we seek enlightenment, or entertainment? If you're interested, then perhaps both. This story is about power. Of the power in the Universe, I can firmly say, that there isn't a soul who would deny it; if not the power of God or the Devil, than of man or of energy. I want you to imagine power, hold that thought in your mind….

1 The Inexhaustible Truth

It's like that Seal song, "….in a world full of people only some want to fly isn't that crazy?" That might mean something different to you than to me. I always wanted to fly. There were half a dozen or so things that I could do to fly. So many ways I wanted to try to. I loved them all so much until someone said ' Jack of all trades master of none'. That really destroyed me. I was going to have to pick one? Well, I never could settle for just one. But only one chose me. The truth is, sometimes on our path to our destinies we decide to take flight, and sometimes we are taken. I will tell how I got here, to the point I am today.

But first, to bore you a bit, I will need to give you insight. If you have any understanding of the basics of nature, than you know that the world, my device for mankind, and nature has many cycles. The earth, the seasons, the food chain, a woman has a cycle, life cycles, power cycles, days cycle, minutes, seconds. All this is energy. If you can picture these cycles it will really work, try to envision them all as circles flowing in and around you and everything, take the pictures away if you would. It is happening in so much steadiness that there can be no greater existence than the force behind them, whatever you might think it is. It fascinated me, more than anything. This may seem very scientific, and maybe I am boring you. I am not really scientific myself, you can rest assured. But there is a certain degree of understanding that must be gained if you want to know my story.

My first memory of the "phenomenon" was of feelings. When, all of a sudden I might take on emotions and I would try to trace them back to something , but sometimes there was no reason for them at all. You might have experienced something more understandable though, some of you, this is the best way to describe it. Once when I was young, I felt very urgent about my mothers speeding. I knew there was trouble ahead, and I said slow down, slow down. Not long after her telling me to hush up, we were pulled over. (Put feelings of doubt aside, please, you must suspend yourself). I call these feelings intrinsic, or basic, feelings. I think many people have these feelings, you should all have stories to tell, at least of someone else's knowledge of their intrinsic feelings. They are the ones that exist on our primary source of insight, that which protects ourselves. They are elementary feelings though because they aren't controllable, are of the self and are not in any way developed. Developing is hard, and sometimes I think impossible. It is truly a gift, but in my way, I managed to turn my little into much.

There would be dreams sometimes. I would see a flash of dark skin, blonde hair, marked features. I would feel desperation or elation, and all that I saw and felt would come in time. I started to recognize when I had my secondary feelings and could finally understand where they were coming from. This feeling of happiness and that glimpse of a shiny black car, that is because so and so is going to buy a black car. Or that woman with the husband who sleeps around, I can see he beats her. Then I would hear about it. It was pretty intense. I started to cut off the rest of humanity to make less matter in my own little world, more like everything was unreal, that way, as it grew, I could bottle it, it was all fantasy. That is, until the day I met Joanna.